Saturday, January 06, 2007
Feels Good To Be Back Been away from the expression, not presumably but actually. So it feels good to be back in action. Feels more like I am kicking some good arse out of the uncomfortable confines forced silence. I just don’t know why I was so away from myself for sometime, although it feels good being someone else at times but I miss my old self. This beats me was it me or someone else in me. Why the idea of this is not my life repeats itself as if it was the eternal truth. But the conflicts remain. Who rules my life? Wonder whether what is more claustrophobic, the assumed notion that someone else rules my life or that someone else rules my life. Got this, if not don’t read ahead. Anyways.. Who decides my freedom me or have I capitulated the rights to someone else? And if I have, how do I reclaim them? Is life a place to be yourself or its a place to be for others? Then who Is Me? or am I mere representation of something. Am I original or is this feeling of ingenuity a bagatelle that helps me evade the fun of being a copier. Am I a copier or is it bad that way. What’s wrong with a copy? Is there anything original, because all is after all a derivative of something or it is a antidote of something else. If it is an antidote, is it not dependent on what it is an antidote of? I mean what’s the use of a No if there was no Yes? Oh lord here I go again on this trip of questions. Were questions made to get answers or were answers made to have questions because they say everything has an answer. Feels good to be lost as then there is hope to be found or haven’t I found myself when I know I am lost. There is always this bigotry that defends the argument and helps the drift. But is drifting bad I mean who says a one needs a direction like its good to have a direction, half of this direction thing isn't it just a story to keep the mind away from feeling adrift?
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Thursday, February 23, 2006
Enamoured
Its really wonderful what all randomly comes in this magical thing called the Brain. Sometimes the interpretation of our senses and sometimes, that magical creation out of nothing. I invite you to these zones, where some random thoughts are at a display in this limited medium of language. Hope I convey more than what is written.
Saturday, December 20, 2003
20th December 2003
For most things that happen to us, we often turn to our experiences. Consciously or sub-consciously, we refer to our past for a reaction. Verbal or physical, this reaction is originated from our brain (of course), which has assessed and responded again based on our experiences, feelings or lack of it, biases, likes, dislikes, habits, orientation, disorientation, lessons, beliefs, put-ons, appearances, basically the way we have presented ourselves over the years. This of course is what we are made up of, how people relate to us with, how people predict and behave with us. Well that makes what we have been, are, and largely what we shall become . In the end it makes us all restricted. We are so enslaved to this personality that we ourselves have created that, it starts ruling us, like life itself.
“We have no control on life” is what we say. Its more of an retort that an explanation of what we are in / up to / doing with our lives. I feel this is a Realisation, if seen through the sieve of pragmatism rather than viewing it as a retort, protest, complaint, dejection, rejection etc, or however else we may feel. Its very difficult to see it in a pragmatic fashion because we are so involved in the rampant psychobabble that ruminates like a chewing gum, not filling our thirst for freshness or novelty for our mental taste-buds nor filling our tummies of desire, ambition, want, need, etc...
Well we get oblivious to facts and we create a bagatelle that’s of little help. Then as the psychobabble gets loud they get verbal and in some cases physical. Perhaps we all, including me oc course, could realise at all times that it’s just a bagatelle that’s around us. This may sound as a spiritual or philosophical in connotation here, but perhaps we need some Detachment, from what we see, feel, live with (whosoever or whatever). But importantly not a physical detachment but a mental detachment. For all those who think I am hinting that one should become selfish, you are WRONG. I am asking you to be pragmatic, give room to others, for their thougths, for being themselves and most importantly BE YOURSELF.
We all take a physical detachment once in a year through a vacation, perhaps we could take a regular and on going mental vacation from our mental landscape or environment that confines us only to our misery / inconvenience (if any) we go through at times and for some people all the time. This kind of vacation may also provide surprises to others and most important (and to the delight ourselves) to Ourselves.
So I set on this vacation, consciously, though its difficult because subconsciously I get led back to my old self. Wish I could live this vacation forever.
Its really wonderful what all randomly comes in this magical thing called the Brain. Sometimes the interpretation of our senses and sometimes, that magical creation out of nothing. I invite you to these zones, where some random thoughts are at a display in this limited medium of language. Hope I convey more than what is written.
Saturday, December 20, 2003
20th December 2003
For most things that happen to us, we often turn to our experiences. Consciously or sub-consciously, we refer to our past for a reaction. Verbal or physical, this reaction is originated from our brain (of course), which has assessed and responded again based on our experiences, feelings or lack of it, biases, likes, dislikes, habits, orientation, disorientation, lessons, beliefs, put-ons, appearances, basically the way we have presented ourselves over the years. This of course is what we are made up of, how people relate to us with, how people predict and behave with us. Well that makes what we have been, are, and largely what we shall become . In the end it makes us all restricted. We are so enslaved to this personality that we ourselves have created that, it starts ruling us, like life itself.
“We have no control on life” is what we say. Its more of an retort that an explanation of what we are in / up to / doing with our lives. I feel this is a Realisation, if seen through the sieve of pragmatism rather than viewing it as a retort, protest, complaint, dejection, rejection etc, or however else we may feel. Its very difficult to see it in a pragmatic fashion because we are so involved in the rampant psychobabble that ruminates like a chewing gum, not filling our thirst for freshness or novelty for our mental taste-buds nor filling our tummies of desire, ambition, want, need, etc...
Well we get oblivious to facts and we create a bagatelle that’s of little help. Then as the psychobabble gets loud they get verbal and in some cases physical. Perhaps we all, including me oc course, could realise at all times that it’s just a bagatelle that’s around us. This may sound as a spiritual or philosophical in connotation here, but perhaps we need some Detachment, from what we see, feel, live with (whosoever or whatever). But importantly not a physical detachment but a mental detachment. For all those who think I am hinting that one should become selfish, you are WRONG. I am asking you to be pragmatic, give room to others, for their thougths, for being themselves and most importantly BE YOURSELF.
We all take a physical detachment once in a year through a vacation, perhaps we could take a regular and on going mental vacation from our mental landscape or environment that confines us only to our misery / inconvenience (if any) we go through at times and for some people all the time. This kind of vacation may also provide surprises to others and most important (and to the delight ourselves) to Ourselves.
So I set on this vacation, consciously, though its difficult because subconsciously I get led back to my old self. Wish I could live this vacation forever.
